The little things that people do...

Always brighten up my day easily.

The emails

The phone calls

The videos

The songs

The notes

or just random little things that u knew they put love into

And the hugs. Bear hugs.

Sometimes you just realize that its these little things in life that matters the most :)

The short 30 minutes when you tend to forget everything and just smile happily, sitting at the quaint little coffeehouse that has the most scrumptious desserts ever.

Arguing over who should eat the last bite, complaining about the calories gained...

The smiles, the laughter, the sweetness.

If one day someone asks me what did I gain the most from this lifetime, I believe the answer shall be the people I've met.

Family and friends. They're those who matter the most.

xoxo

Of falling leaves, bare trees. And broken hearts.

I know, I know.

Been blogging way too much in random bits and pieces.

But this is how I feel like right now.

Made up of random bits and pieces, nothing complete, nothing perfect.

Then you think about the perfect little pieces that you thought will complete your life, only to find out that one day you have to wake up and realize that the perfect pieces aren't that perfect after all, or that particular perfect piece just isn't for you.

Its time to wake up to reality.

Ah shush. I am being cryptic. Don't even ask me what it means. No idea.

Its the cold that's turning me into this. I know it.

Turning me into a grouchy polar bear that needs to hibernate.

Smores. Sometimes cures hearts. Sometimes.

When Fall was still pretty, and my heart was still complete. Or maybe I just wasn't that complicated.

And Fall now. Bare trees. Broken twigs. Fallen leaves.

Last week at Beijing. Even though had status report on hand, was still happy over a dinner.

I guess maybe its easier to be happy when u're busy.

You just don't have time to think about the complications in your life.

Yesterday night. Dinner. Sang Kee.

Chern Han and Kai Sheng visited. :)

Sorry for being a bad host though. Come when I move into an apartment lah haha.

Took a cab there, no thanks Septa strike. Walked back.

Then ended up playing mafia until 2am ish, too cold and too lazy to walk back so spent the night at a friend's place.

And it was today.

I am still mad at not getting a scarf when others who came so late got theirs.

Coz everything went kinda wrong after that.

Until the game.

I need people who automatically make me feel better when I'm around and not stress me out further.

Vanessa, Me, Joyce. <3

Penn

Penn again.

See the guy in front? Rawr.

Anyway left after third quarter, was too cold.

We won in the end.

42-7

And I finally kinda get the hang of football :)

And as we walked back, just realized that last week kinda was the last night going out.

Its now too cold to go out at night, even in gloves.

:S

Thinking back, yes. US is fun. The new people you meet are amazing, are awesome.

But out of nowhere, the sudden pang strikes and you realize u need ur old friends.

And you realize that it actually will never be the same again...

Times change, people change, priorities in life change.

Friends once, friends for life.

Its just that things will never be the same again.

You will never study in the same class together, never mug for exams together, never have midnight chats together, never have midnight suppers together...

Everything's just so different.

Its just part and parcel of life.

And then after graduating, I'll miss everything here.

Life's always a circle, or rather a wave.

After the peak, you just have to go down, and then u start to climb up again, and once you reach the peak it falls again.

I hate adapting. I don't want to adapt, but I am.

Don't even know if this is a good or bad thing anymore.

I want everything together.

I don't want to be independent anymore.

I don't want cold bathrooms that make me hate showering.

I don't like being mediocre.

I don't like being this stressed out over mediocrity.

I don't like people talking about summer internships.

I don't like everything happening at the same time.

I don't like myself complaining about everything.

I'm a horrible person.

I just want to go home.

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到最后才发现， 事实是残酷的？

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Ahh. Its been so long since I could actually spend a Friday afternoon catching up on lost sleep.

So much for automatically waking up early this morning.

No thanks to the SEPTA strike by the way, or else I'd be out and about *annoyed*

Today was so so so freaking cold. I have no idea why was it thaaaat cold.

No. Idea. Why. I'm not even joking.

D:

Hope its just today.

Homecoming tomorrow.

PENN VS. PRINCETON!

Must go.

For Once

For once, I actually feel almost done...

At least next week will be a more relaxing week.

The two weeks before this have been too insane haha but I guess it paid off...

Or so I hope.

:) Happy weekend people!

To Bubu and Dailou, Happy Birthday!

就这样

I thought high school was stressful enough to keep up with my own standards. No.

I thought INTI was stressful enough, with people overly concerned about uni apps, SAT scores and such. No.

And now its Wharton. Maybe its time I accepted some mediocrity in my life.

Welcome to real life Shan! :)

Anyway, I know I have been grumbling about loads of work and what not, but trust me, education in the US is very fulfilling.

You get an amazing experience.

You meet wonderful people.

You get to live independently. (Haha my bad, been too dependent for the past 18 years. I miss that though)

You get to travel.

You get to have fun.

In addition to the loads of work, stress, presentations, papers, I'd say yeah they're worth it.

Well, the only huge complain I have is about the cold.

I have a super low threshold, and this is NOT helping me in any way at all.

Brr. Brr. Brr. Brr. ...

*turns into an icecube*

Done? I guess not.

Tired. Things never ever get done over here ):

I guess its just down to personal time management skills then.

Yeap, managed to hand in my midterm paper, and the final one is due five weeks from now.

0_0 Don't even wanna think of it first haha

Now let's see. After microecons midterms, now we're starting on macro.

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When we were at inti we had 4 months each, one week I think 4 hours of lecture that type man.

Aduhai... Although that doesn't help that much, or so I think. Shall see how the grades are when they come out.

Macro coursework is so troublesome. Essays. Boo. And so many objective questions. Double Boo. Each week. Triple Boo.

Math is alright, next midterm drop dead smack on my birthday. Better be good or else... Tears.

Status reports(some formal presentation thingy that takes up so much time to prepare. So much as in >12 hours minimum) next week. This weekend will be so full :(

Two weeks later MGMT event

Another week from that math midterm.

Another week after FRSM presentation. *smacks head*

Then ahola thank god there's Thansgiving Break.

Going down to New York on Thurs with hallmates.

The week after TG break, FRSM final paper hand in. (Where do I get the time to do it lah hello? I guess the only consolation would be that the professor said that we've got the hard part done (: )

After that, last week of school.

OMG AND THIS IS HALF OF FRESHMAN YEAR!

Another week later, Arabic finals.

Another week after that, math and econs finals.

And on the 23rd HOME SWEET HOME.

I'm actually mad at myself for choosing 23rd blah. Should've gone home on the 22nd coz everybody's going home that day!

Maybe shall find a friend's place to crash that night... Don't wanna be alone laaar :p

And that's basically my schedule until year end. Seeee, packed until the day I go home! :(

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Ah, perhaps it was the sudden change that caught me off guard.

Found out something by the way, I am very bad at immediate adaptations to change.

When I first arrived here, I cried.

When I was at a huge lost as to what to do yesterday, I cried.

Boo.. Haha

Today has been about the same, but I felt better, partially due to the support, and partially due to talking to parents.

<3

To those who tried made me feel better in various ways, you know I love you guys.

All things said, although I still have NOT started to arrange my mock sched for next semester, I still want this semester to be over, FAST.

Some things you won't regret it, but you will just want it to occur that only one time throughout your whole life. (Not talking bout my paper by the way)

Shall disclose at the end of this year. There are some reasons behind this.